Measurements

This just popped into my head this morning, there is a lot going on in all of my loved ones lives, so it made me want to write something about it. 

"Some times I feel that I don't measure up but then I realize that God doesn't use a measuring cup So I am fine as I am. " - Asia original quote!

Often times we as people feel like we aren't doing enough, we are not far enough in our careers,  or not doing good enough in school or we are not good enough for our love interest. We all feel this way some times even if we don't admit it. 

Wondering why such and such has an internship and you don't even though you feel your better for the job or is your x-girlfriend's  new boyfriend better looking or suited for her then you are. With all these thoughts all you want to do is be good enough for them, the job, or just anything. We are all our own worst critics. This is true. But why do we spend so much time criticizing ourselves when there is a master plan we haven't any ideas about. 

Maybe we should start looking at things this way as I have, I'll go a head and put myself out there for the sake of the blog but after my last boyfriend and I broke up I often told myself he could have any girl in the world; girls prettier then me with better careers who weren't just a college student, he could have models and actresses and singers, he could have the girls I seen on tv and wanted to be like myself. Yes I felt like all of it was true and he probably could have a number of girls but the fact of the matter is I could have a better relationship, and that was what was out there for me. I couldn't compare myself with these other girls. And by doing this I was only making myself feel worse... So I started looking at things a little differently, I am me and I am important to the people in my life for that. I was important to him even if I wasn't a model just as he was to me for being him. 

Where I was going with this is that there is too much of this happening in this world and It just needs to stop.... God put us all together how we should be and if you think it is less then the next person the person we are only putting ourselves down for no reason. 

 

We were all made as we should have been, there were no mistakes and it is not that we weren't good enough for the job but that there is something better for us waiting. and better for us dosen't always mean better then the last it means better suited for us. 

have a good day people and don't laugh at me too much about my real life experience above ;-)

A$

Please dont tell me things are JUST LIFE....

"When letting go becomes different then letting it go"

Asia started this with this title and never wrote anything under it so I just decided to run with it.

The difference between letting go and letting it go....

It is more than just erasing the pictures, it is erasing the memories.
It is not attending the places that you once used to not because you may run into him, it is because of the times that you shared there... oh how they replay in your mind.
Letting go... letting go... letting it go... let it go... let him go....

It is so hard to let go... not just to let it go... to let him go....
Let go because it is gone
Let it go because you let it go
Let him, go because you cannot let go
It is too difficult to let go because you refuse to let him go... because he really didnt wanna go.
You forced him out...
You let go before you time...
He still has not been able to let go...
You both have not let go

Let go
Let go
Let it go
Let her go
Let him go

You both have let go before your time
So you are caught in eachothers dreams
Dreaming of the next time you will see one another
But when you do
You are too afraid
Because you feel that she has let it go... let you go... out the window... with her last miscellaneous thought.
Because you feel that he has let it go... let you go... out the window... with his last miscellaneous thought.

Not letting go
Not letting it go
Not letting him go
Not letting her go
Not letting each other go because the words "I Love You" repeat in your brain like an echo.

Damn is there a difference of letting go and letting it go? They both hurt, and they both relate to you... Letting go cannot be you... but this is the one thing that I have to do.

I wrote this last year and it has come to light that this was the prefect time to revisit this... whether it is you love life or things in your personal life, letting go and letting it all go it a process that will hurt. I know that first hand.

D♥

What?

What do you want to hear me talk about? For the past few posts from me have been slightly dedicated to love situations or just random babble. But I want to leave it up to the people reading to decide what you want to read from me. Leave a comment under this post or just tell me on twitter. Oh yeah follow me while you are on there if you want.

Is it May or did I get punked?

Good morning Fine Jones experience blog readers. It is a fine morning for me full paper writing and coldness. Is there any reason that is it so damn cold in May and it is the end of May come one 50 is just unacceptable man. 

but off of the weather, I can't really explain how mad I am 

about being up this early working on a paper I should have been doing last night, I am so over school man. I will really feel like I earned my diploma, I'm not saying I was a book worm in college or anything but its been a journey man and I'll feel accomplished when its done. 

UGH I'd rather be sleeping right now, my motivation right now is how awesome my summer will be. Where I'll go, the places I'll see and the book I am going to be writing. I can't wait. I really can't you guys.  

But writing papers this early in the morning just sucks no matter how you look at it. All I can do to get through it is day dream and listen to Cinnamon.... I like this song.... takes me to a 1992 tribe called quest but not type shit place... it has a funny spin to it but that's where the song takes me. "She looks like cinnamon..."   yeah... this'll get me through this paper...

Well people what are you up to this morning what are ya'll listening to???

btw if you haven't downloaded gone fishing go there ---> http://coolxkids.com/ and do it... 

Well back off to paper writing. Have a Good day people. 

A$

Nightly Confession....

Yes this is something  everyone can look forward to from us from now on.....  

but my nightly confession is I like the rain.... I like to cuddle when it rains or snows. I like to just cuddle and talk when the weather is sucky you can really get to know someone... 

"It Tastes Like You But Sweeter"/ My Favorite is Turquoise

I was listening to the Blu mixtape, HerFavoriteColo(u)r, and I was thinking that no one can really grasp there whole mind around the idea of love. Love is a complicated situation.

When you are not in love you are trying to wrap your mind around why you are not in love and when you will find that love. Or you are consuming with something, miscellanous shit or your love of a occupation or hobby.

When you finally find that love, you are wondering if it will end, or is it the best it is going to get or will it get better. When you are in love it is a big book full of questions, Will it end, Is he/she in love with me, Will I fall in love with someone else, Is this what love is, other thoughts that wreck your brain until you cannot fathom the thought of the word love again. You just become accustom to just say "I love you", and mean it sometimes and other times it is just habit.

However, when you are out of love, from being in love, that is the biggest worthless limbo... You constantly reinvent yourself, saying you are over that person this and that. No more love for you, so you start fucking around and realize that you aint lovin yourself. Or you become hard on yourself for letting that love go....

Love is. It is the hardest drug known to man. Sometimes just a Casual Love User... and sometimes I Overdose. Or maybe thats just me... Maybe thats why I have it tatted on my side... maybe thats why they call me Destiny Love.

And if you have not downloaded the mixtape you can do it here.

*Nightly Confession*

Asia came up with the idea of starting to do a nightly confession each night... so I decided to do one tonight... It is not a deep dark secret or anything it is just something on the brain right before the night ends...

Well for me tonight my nightly confession is that I cannot wait to see Disney's "Up" in 3D on Friday. I love Disney animated films and after work I think I am going to go to the Lake show and see the new movie... I really cannot wait...


I know i am such a dork. Oh well. I live a good dorky life. Hit me up if you want to join me...lol


D♥

When The Sun Sets...

Today when the sun set, I looked at a few things differently. There has been a lot going on what i am not ready to delve into right now. Just to say i have been crying so much that my eyes are now bruised, as long with my heart. But today was different, I stood up and understood everything. Everything would be, "I cannot control everything." That is pretty hard for me to accept because i have a open heart, and I a heavy thinker so i try to fix everything that seems unknown. With me or someone that i care about. Anyway, as I watched the sun set, I just sighed... because that is all i can do right now. With all the stress that i have had this week, the sunset was calming and comforting even tho i was alone, i feel that all my emotions were sheltered from the storm that they encountered. Thanks to the sunset and all the support that i have had i am currently content, and everything will be ok.

D♥

Re-Cap

Ok I know it has been a long time since the last post. I have to apologize. There has been hella shit going on in the past month. Let's quickly re-cap.

1) Drama

2) Love

3) Drama

4) New Tattoo

5) Drama

6) New Summer CD

7) New Apartment

8) Fun

9) Loss

10)Drama

11) Money

12) Sanity

13) Realization

14) Happiness

15) VESPA!!!

That is what i am going to pick up right now... wish me luck

D. Love.

Good Morning.

I just really wanted to say Hi world. That's it.